This is a terrible update. Hopefully future entries will not suck. 15.03.07 1:43 p.m.
Only a third of the people on my buddy list ever update anymore. I rarely update anymore. I've been using Suicide Girls because A) I keep getting gift accounts, and B) I can make entries private at a whim. It's nice for when I want to complain about communal living or simply to avoid having all my dirty linen out there. That said, I don't really air my linen much anymore, anyhow. I'm a bit dull, as far as online journaling goes.
Here's an update for anyone who still wonders about me:
* I got a job at a Starbucks. It's a job. Meh. It's ok, I suppose. There are some nice people. There are annoyances of the service industry sort, as well as the corporate evil sort. I've been working lots of night shifts, which is upsetting. I'm giving it another month before I've decided if I hate it enough to leave. All the jobs I've ever had ended up swallowing my life, so I'm trying not to care too much about this one.
* I did not do very well in my first year at university. Shit happens. I had things to deal with. Apparently, I am a brilliant writer, very talented, frighteningly smart (not my words). But I'm not good at school, by which I mean, I'm poorly organized, easily daunted and have a hard time focusing (my words). What else is new.
* The internet is boring me. It's all about social networking, which basically amounts to amassing lots of fake friends to whom you link via your Facebook or MySpace page, and then spam repeatedly in gigantic font about your shitty band/art opening/party/opinion piece/online quiz result/what celebrities you most resemble. If you wear bad 80s clothing, list CAN and Whitesnake among your favourite bands, read Nick Hornby and enjoy knitting, everyone will think you're cool. What else is new.
* I'm trying to think of anything else I'm willing to share in this particular space. Self-censorship sucks, but so do the people who make it necessary. My life has become more private in recent months. Sorry.
The last time I tried to update this thing, I got that old "only paid members can update right now" message, so here goes nothing.
listening:
reading:
ingesting:
(see entries before 20.11.05)
previously on Smothered Hope:
unreal - 20.05.08
in which our narrator kinda just babbles on a bit - 15.05.08
drank several margaritas last night. they were great. - 04.05.08
spacey - 29.04.08
i will most definitely regret posting this in public - 28.04.08