Existential crisis, point form:
- Why did I let Kathryn convince me to stay?
- Why am I not as far along towards my personal goals as my peers seem to be
- Why have I devoted myself to other people so much it has interfered with my own interests?
- Why do I feel guilty and frightened every time I make an attempt to make my own life better?
- Maybe some time off from work will help me decide?
- When am I going to sit down and make that plan I keep thinking about?
- Why does my messy house always distract me from what I really want to get done?
- Why does it seem so difficult to get my thoughts in order these days?
- Can I please stop feeling like I've failed at everything now?
- If I'm so fucking smart, how come I'm feeling angsty and helpless?
back | forth
listening:
reading:
ingesting:
(see entries before 20.11.05)
previously on Smothered Hope:
unreal - 20.05.08
in which our narrator kinda just babbles on a bit - 15.05.08
drank several margaritas last night. they were great. - 04.05.08
spacey - 29.04.08
i will most definitely regret posting this in public - 28.04.08