smothered hope

I put a lot on my plate today. I should really be in the shower, but this tea is so good... mmmm, tea.

I had trouble getting to sleep last night, and when I finally fell asleep sometime after three, I dreeamt boring dreams, the last of which before waking involved being at work. It was slightly too realistic for my liking. I'm leaning more and more towards the "quit" side of my mind. It's far easier to think about when I'm away from the mind-controlling, apathetic grey and beige of Cubicle Farm Three. I recieved an e-mail from the other "senior" staff member I had allied myself with during the whole evilboss crisis, telling me he's been recently demoted. (In my dream, he was sitting on my desk, telling me about how he has trouble getting along with a woman in our group who I am friendly with. All I could think was, "No! No more fucking drama!") I think the crap is the same, just on a different cycle. But I'm still not sure what to do if/after I quit.

It seems simple, of course: get a new job. But do I really want to waste some employer's and my own time doing something I am only mildly interested in for compensation that's less than wonderful? Of course not. Will I need to? Possibly... but not necessarily. There are other ways of paying the bills, as evidenced by some people I know. And no, they're not dodgy means, either.

The fact that I am having work dreams is a sign, for certain. I'm a bit more miffed that I woke up late, but at least I'm still close to schedule.

Well, I try my best
To be just like I am,
But everybody wants you
To be just like them.
They sing while you slave and I just get bored.
I ain't gonna work on Maggie's farm no more.

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previously on Smothered Hope:

unreal - 20.05.08
in which our narrator kinda just babbles on a bit - 15.05.08
drank several margaritas last night. they were great. - 04.05.08
spacey - 29.04.08
i will most definitely regret posting this in public - 28.04.08